ive been selling my life recently on ebay and also bought a few cute items!
however, one of them was this gorgeous mint green floaty crop top which unfortunately ive realised doe not fit me. :’(
SUPER GIRL PROBLEMS - it’s a size 8 & so am i but my boobs are too big and it just hangs off them.
note to self; never buy floaty tops as they look like a tent. waa!
i keep forgetting im in a bloody relationship. i dont hear from him all day, i have to text first, i dont see him for a week at a time.
sometimes i wonder what the hell goes through guys heads.
one of my old friends from spain called me and asked if i wanted to meet up with him this evening and i havent seen him in a long long time so i was like yeah sure!
i then asked him where we were going as i didnt know what to wear (super white girl problems? haha) and he replied with “i’ve had a long day, why dont i come over?” i was cool with that but said there was nothing really to do here….. i think most of you can see where this is heading.
he replies with “i’m sure we can find something ;)”
OH FFS! HAHA really people!? neither one of us is single for a start and also i have never made any implications that i’m interested in him like that! what is wrong with men?
my boyfriend has just left - been here 24 hours. however, now i feel really like bleugh. probs wont see him for another week. ffs.
not used to seeing once a week, dont like not spending every night. actually miss him already.
he used to send me texts as soon as he left saying miss you baby! now i’m lucky if i get one before he goes to bed.
today is the day of my interview and i am shitting myself tbh.
so nervous. PLUS the fact that i didn’t get home from work till gone 4am means i’ve had jack shit sleep.
ugh, wish me luck!
probably gonna get some hate over this BUT -
my mum has pretty much said that because i don’t believe in god (i don’t believe in anything, i have no beliefs which is the way of a lot of people i know including my brother) she doesn’t want me at her funeral, cutting me out of the will and i apparently now think that when my granddad died he went to hell.
my family aren’t church goers or bible readers or anything of that extent. i never went to church when i was younger or anything!
i can not believe how ridiculous she’s being. i would never have expected this from her.
when your boyfriend tells you his car is in “hospital” because he’s had a crash and then doesn’t respond to your texts or calls. it’s time to panic right? fuck.
spent ALL night cuddling. that is weird. that never happens. normally i wake up and am like “GET OFF, YOU’RE TOO WARM, AHH DYING, CANT BREATHE”
but every time i woke up he was cuddled into me or had moved and i was cuddled into him.
puke. i know.
but whatever trevor. i liked it :)
my mum just called me from florida to say that my dad, uncle and her are currently in the queue to enter the hogwarts castle in islands of adventure.
i think it’s time to disown them (i joke)
on a happier note i had a lovely few days at Ed’s house playing in the snow, watching endless amounts of lee evans and am now back, smelling reem (been on a sunbed - the smell of my skin afterwards makes me want to eat myself) and ready to hit some Tinsel Town with the besties before coming home and cracking on with some Uni work.
due to the fact i live in student halls and here alone i have 20 dresses, 7 blazers, 9 hoodies (sold 3) and countless tshirts i think it’s about time that i realised that i need a clear out & i need to STOP SHOPPING.
BUT it’s christmas and there are sales on and clothes are so pretty. :’(
don’t get your hopes up. don’t get your hopes up. don’t get your hopes up. don’t get your….. opps.
there was a chance that dan was coming down today and now it looks like he’s working AGAIN & due to the flooding in stratford-upon-avon he’s had to barricade the studios. it’s only been a week but i flipping miss his face
and penis . ahh well, shit happens. back to bed i go.
so, i went back to stratford upon avon this weekend. it’s where i spent the years from 17-19 and fell in love.
i went back there for the first time in over a year and stayed with my ex. the love and feelings came flooding back to us. it was as if nothing in the past 2 years had happened, as if we’d never been apart and i felt so content. everything just fitted back into place and it was all right again.
i’ll keep you updated on us.
so, i havent really written many RANTS recently.
atm one thing after another keeps going wrong with me.
1) not over jamie
2) burnt hand
3) half a finger nail missing
4) no money
5) stressed with uni
6)…. sure there’s one.
on a plus side i’ve been spending more time with my buddies. damn i missed them.
it was a year ago today that we were told the awful news that my papas cancer had returned in full force and that there was nothing that they could do about it. he died in january aged 80.
there isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about him. he used to be so full of life and love until cancer stole him from us.
i miss you papa. i hope you’re looking down on us and smiling.
forever love you xx